What's going on....?
What is the worst thing about learning a beautiful song? Nothing, except when you are not going to present it. ‘The ways of God’, is the piece that the choir will be presenting on Reformation Sunday, 30 Oct. It’s simple, lovely and just simply catchy.
Where will I be on 30 Oct? On an island, being barked at.
Suddenly going for choir practice seems to be an irony. Other then the hymn presentation in August, I just simply see no reason to attend. I can’t present on the 30th and Christmas is doubtful. Well, I don’t even know if I can still attend practices after I enlist.
This feeling really sucks. Putting in effort, trying to sing the piece well, yet at the end of it, I know I am not even going to present it. Isaac asked why I am learning it. For a spilt second, I didn’t know what to say. So I simply laughed it off.
Yea, why am I learning it? Why put in the effort to even attend the practices after August? It is only service to God when you present it and let it be a blessing to the congregation.
Well, my birthday is round the corner, and for some reason or another, I just don’t seem to be the least excited about it. I don’t even know what I want for my birthday. What is going on with me? I wonder. Right now, out of the blue I guess almost everything seems to have lost its appeal.
Everything seems to be so fake. People included. Am I going insane? Maybe I am suffering from depression after all. I guess my problem is I think too much. Too much nonsensical thoughts, throwing myself into a state of delusion.
Am I back sliding? I know I am not, probably just a spiritual low.
(Listening to Fort Minor’s Where’d you go while typing this. Strange, how I told Esther that I didn’t really like this song, but ends up it’s the only song that I want to listen to now.)
Where will I be on 30 Oct? On an island, being barked at.
Suddenly going for choir practice seems to be an irony. Other then the hymn presentation in August, I just simply see no reason to attend. I can’t present on the 30th and Christmas is doubtful. Well, I don’t even know if I can still attend practices after I enlist.
This feeling really sucks. Putting in effort, trying to sing the piece well, yet at the end of it, I know I am not even going to present it. Isaac asked why I am learning it. For a spilt second, I didn’t know what to say. So I simply laughed it off.
Yea, why am I learning it? Why put in the effort to even attend the practices after August? It is only service to God when you present it and let it be a blessing to the congregation.
Well, my birthday is round the corner, and for some reason or another, I just don’t seem to be the least excited about it. I don’t even know what I want for my birthday. What is going on with me? I wonder. Right now, out of the blue I guess almost everything seems to have lost its appeal.
Everything seems to be so fake. People included. Am I going insane? Maybe I am suffering from depression after all. I guess my problem is I think too much. Too much nonsensical thoughts, throwing myself into a state of delusion.
Am I back sliding? I know I am not, probably just a spiritual low.
(Listening to Fort Minor’s Where’d you go while typing this. Strange, how I told Esther that I didn’t really like this song, but ends up it’s the only song that I want to listen to now.)
posted by aLv @ 9:55 PM
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