Jinxed
This has to be the worst fever I have ever been plagued in my entire life. On to the 3rd day and counting, the fever is showing no sign of subsiding.
Here’s the ironic part. On Tuesday morning, I informed my superior that I will be leaving by lunch and will not be coming in on Wednesday. Reason being, there wasn’t really much to do at work, thus I wanted to use the time to go hang out etc. I went home for a nap, and it was then where all hell broke loose. I woke up feeling very warm and yet my feet and palms were cold. I knew at that very moment, something was very wrong with me. I took my body temperature and it turned out to be a shocking 38.8˚. Yes I should have seen a doctor immediately, but I felt too faint to leave the house. Popped a Panadol at night before I slept hopping that I will be better tomorrow.
I was not. In fact I was feeling worst. At night, I had problems breathing. My nose was completely blocked and I could only breathe through my mouth. That lead to a dry throat which acts up whenever I try to moisturize it. So now I have a fever, very bad sore throat, a completely blocked nose and muscle aches all over me.
The doctor gave me a day of m.c. But it seems that his medicine isn’t working very well. Wednesday night, my nose was cleared on and off. But the air that I exhaled was so warm that I felt my nose were being burnt with every breathe. So the least painful way of breathing will be to inhale through my noise and exhale through my mouth. But it’s kind of troublesome.
Usually when I have a sore throat, I will take Strepsils, even if it is going to take 24 lozenges and it works. Not this time round. No I have not taken 24, only 6, but it doesn’t seem to have any effect on the sore throat.
Right now, nothing seems to have changed much. I am still having a fever though it has dropped below 38 degrees for now. The sore throat is still happily hang around, so are the muscle aches and headaches. I keep wondering, is it a sign that the Lord is calling me home? Or will I be paralyzed or something. Ok, I am being delusional.
What a weekend
Instead of feeling well rested, I felt much more worn out. But, it was energy well spent, though I may be struggling to keep awake right now.
Can’t be bothered to go for work last Friday, due to the combine Youth Conference. Reason being, I didn’t attend any camps or retreat. Miss the YF retreat, Church camp and the only thing left is Youth Conference. So, I just had to go. And thank God I did. It was a good time of fellowship, listening to the messages, studying and discussing scriptures. I enjoyed it. I won’t mind doing that all day.
Friday was the crazy day, after YC, Jon, Danny, Johan, Wei Tse and Zheqian came to my place for tennis, despite after an hour of captain’s ball earlier. After which, we all went for G62 contact group at brother Henry’s place. My first time there. We were all 45min late, but ironically, they have not started yet. Started of with prayer meeting followed by the message on ‘Our Issacs’. After the message was the food! Considering the fact that none of the YFers who came to my place had dinner, so we were all busy helping ourselves. Only reached home 5 before 12mn, and had to wake up at 730 the next day for the 2nd day of YC. But for some reason or another, I couldn’t sleep that night, woke up at 130 and bummed around the house till 330 before dozing off again.
Went for NYGH’s band concert on Sunday evening. Well, I must say that I still very much prefer Choir concerts to band ones. According to Chris, the band wasn’t very good, thus it could be one of the reasons why I didn’t really enjoy the performance. It was OK to me. Bumped into Hanjie’s mum and sister at Bukit Batok and at the concert. Both the sisters have this ‘puffy cheek’ thingy which makes them look alike. Though the 2nd sister looks abit more petit than Hanjie.
I’ve finally got my enlistment date. Oct 26. Dots. That’s 3 more months from now. What am I suppose to do? Considering the fact that I am getting sick of working.
I passed my baptism interview and now the deciding factor has to be brought in. Will I be baptized on July 16?
Esther was at the office on Sunday where I did my interview and out of the blue she asked me this, ‘ So will you be staying in YF for good?’ -.-''
Work Dilemma
My contract is coming to an end. 2 more weeks to go. But, I have 2 more months before I enlist. Well, rumor has it that Nestle wants to extend my contract. But should I accept? If I do, that means it will be another 2-3 months of boring, mundane, non-engaging, brainless work.
But if I don’t, what am I going to do? I want to do something interesting, fun or even meaningful. But most of the people will be enlisted, working, back to school or out of town. Plus, I do need additional resources to fund my various interests. Seems like I don’t have much of a choice, do I?
Baptism Dilemma
Should I seek the authority before the last lesson or after? Before the interview or after? What if I seek, and am given yet flunk the interview, won’t that be tragic? Or maybe I should go for the interview, pass it then seek.
Am I painting the cross with the color of steel? Apparently so. Why is it that the fear of not living up to expectation keeps haunting me? Yes, a Christian is not perfect but one who has a transformed life. But that sounds more like an excuse instead of comfort. With the utmost dilution to the name of Christ in these last days, the last thing I need to do is to add onto it and further blaspheme it.
The most immediate witness of my witness will be my family. I tried, and am still trying, but apparently my witness has not been a very good one. The old man seems to be very at home whenever I’m home.
‘Help me O’Lord, to offer my life to thee as a sweet savior sacrifice, pleasing and acceptable unto thy sight.’
Apparently, it’s not.
Camel-Lepoard
Getting Dizzy?
Lost in time..

Walls of Jericho
Magnified...

To Infinity and Beyond!!!

Feeling Dry
She believed in Christ when she was 10. Coming from a MG background, I guess the daily and constant preaching of the word will somehow get into your head. She worships at NCC. Initially, she was fervent; enjoy listening to the sermons, doing her devotions daily, faithfully. But it all changed when her dad left church 3 years ago. Reasons, unknown. Her dad serves in 3 different ministries, and yet backslided. Though he has returned to the faith, it was too much for a young girl and it affected her faith tremendously. Now, she attends the activities, camps and services simply because her friends are there. Remove the friend factor; she couldn’t care less about going. She feels that her faith is dry. With so much questions and doubts in her, she is slowly embarking on a back sliding road and none of her friends knows about it.
What she is going through sounds very familiar to me. Period of dryness, not being able to see the purpose of worshipping, just wanting to live a life of your own and to make matters worst, your dad once left the faith, which will cast numerous quires in your head.
Dryness. Too much head knowledge and little heart experience. Listen but not doing. Understanding but not obeying. Thus, after awhile, everything will become a routine, mundane, meaningless.
Personal favourite
I confess. This is quite a lucky shot. I didn't expect the background to be blured, which allowed the object to stand out even more.