Will I
Will I Lose My Dignity
Will Someone Care
Will I Wake Tomorrow
From This Nightmare?
There Is No Future, There Is No Past
I Live This Moment, As My Last...
Forget regret, or life is yours to miss
No Other Road, No Other Way, No Day But Today..
Lessons
Some lessons, you have to learn it the hard way, before you fully comprehend it; for me, I guess..
So many times, have I been warn before I tread down this road. But yet, I was so blinded, and let myself to subject to such merciless abuse. Again, and again, and again. Now, I'm heavily scarred. I do not know where to pick myself up. Everyday now, is a healing process. Stitching back the wounds inflicted. Each stitch stings, as the thread goes through the flesh, and out again.
How could I've been so silly, hoping that something good will come out of it.
Deception, deceitfulness, equivocation, sophism. Is that all to it?
Perhaps there was truth.. but how do I sieve it out?
I don't know what to believe.
Another day
I cant let go, even if i wanted to.
I cant not care, even if i wanted to.
I really wish i can just not give a damn about it, and try and lead a happier life despite being where I am.
Each day is like a dread. Weekends are an illusion.
I find my rebellious self taking dominant.
I've made my choice, and am playing with my future. Standing alone, facing the oncoming slaughter of doubts.
You want so much from me, but yet not willing to give any in return. Or am I expecting too much because of what i've given you?
There is no peace nor rest. Even my dreams are haunted.
I don't know what to do...
I find no strength..
By His grace and mercy, I'm still here.. to face another day.
